So sick of being sick

I am 12 weeks and 2 days pregnant today...and so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm so tired of feeling exhausted, and nauseated...and the headaches and indigestion and VOMITING. OMG its so bad that i have my own secret bathroom at work that i found just so i can vomit in private. It's Awful!! I mean, i was sick with Morgan, but not this sick...plus the first time around i could sleep when i felt tired, lay down when i felt sick, and go home from work when it became too much. Circumstances are just different this time and there is absolutely no way to cope this time! AAHHH!! I'm just hoping that as i enter into the second trimester this "morning" sickness will ease up.
This experience is SO different this time, which i did not expect. For one thing, i forget i'm even pregnant! I mean before, when it was just us, the whole focus was on me and taking care of my needs. Our lives revolved around my growing belly. Also, it was so new and such a shock that it was always on my mind...what could we expect, were we ready, could we handle it, how much fatter am i going to get? And as i said before, i was able to rest when i wasn't feeling well.
This time, it's so different. We just simply don't have the time to think about it...the only reason i remember is because i have my head stuck in a toilet three or four times a day and none of my clothes fit anymore...otherwise i honestly forget! And Morgan requires all of my attention, not to mention the laundry, the groceries, the housework, and my full time night shift job. There is so much going on i'm almost positive that the due date is going to sneak up on us and we are going to be like "OMG we aren't ready for this yet!!"
Also, i'm not as excited or enthusiastic about this one...it makes me sad, but everyone i've talked to says its normal to feel that way...i haven't had the desire to think about names, plan the babies room, or even buy maternity clothes! I just haven't connected with the idea yet i guess. It's so wierd. And it's so hard to imagine loving another child as much as I love Morgan, but i know everyone thinks that before their second child...so i'm not worried. I'm just gonna take it day by day, week by week.....12 weeks down...24 weeks to go

ANOTHER bun in the oven!!

Yep, it's true. We are crazy, and yes....we are having another baby! The due date is early November (which i must admit feels like a million years away) and we are very excited to welcome another member into our family! I am about nine weeks along now and this pregancy has been SO tough...i used to think that juggling Morgan, the nightshift, and sleep deprivation was hard...but now it all has to be done with severe morning sickness thrown in the mix. And when i say "morning sickness" i mean all day 24/7 never-ending sickness...I'm definately sicker with this one and it has made for a tough couple of weeks :( But Taylor thinks that means it's a boy haha...fingers crossed! We asked Morgan whether she would like a baby sister or baby brother and she promptly replied "no...i don't want it" and followed with "i no like a babies"...HA! She is in for a rude awakening isn't she! Poor little thing...So that's our news! I will try to update this thing more often and keep everyone posted on how the pregnancy is moving along.
On another "exciting" note...i was accepted to the MCC Nursing program!!! My start was for this fall (August 2010) but i chose to defer placement until next semester so I wouldn't have to miss any school to have the baby. It was a bittersweet moment to open that acceptance letter...i was so happy to finally read those words "you have been placed"...but at the same time I knew that I would have to wait yet another semester before I could start on this part of my life. But i've come to terms with it now...this is a good thing. We will have more time to prepare financially and I will be able to focus all my attention on growing a baby and spending time with Morgan. And then i will be able to start the nursing program in January...so I figure, i waited a year and a half to get in, what's 5 more months?
Anyway, I believe this chain of events has occured in an order specific to what God has planned for our family so I am happy and content with it. Life never seems to slowly unfold for us, it kind of always EXPLODES in intervals....first was a surprise pregnancy and a marriage within a matter of 4 months....then it was moving three times in one year and changing of jobs and schedules mixed in...and now it's another baby and then nursing school back to back! Like i said, we are CRAZY...but so happy. Thank you to our families and freinds for all your love and support.
I will be in touch!!