Saturday, January 7, 2012

Back in action

I'm gonna give another go at this blogging thing. As I browse over my previous posts (all five of them) I realize I am quite terrible at this...but i'm gonna try. While obviously "baby lee no.2" is here and is actually 14 months old now! Avery Caitlyn, what can I say about you...you are fiesty, stubborn, but oh so sweet...you love to cuddle, you give hugs and kisses for free (whereas big sis Morgan has to be bribed). Oh yes and you and sister are bffs...most of the time. Also, I'm halfway done with nursing school AND no longer work the nightshift, or any job for that matter! For the past year I've just been going to nursing school and raising my girls...and I have never, in all my 27 years, ever been happier with life. This is what I was meant to do and where I was meant to be. I knew God was leading me here, it was the only way I was able to make it through. Having Avery has done so many amazing things to this family...and I smile looking back on my previous post and reading how nervous I was that I wouldn't love this child as much as Morgan. Each of the girls have been given to us for a purpose....Avery saved us...our marriage, our sanity, our faith...and Taylor and I talk all the time about how we finally feel like a real, loving family.
Anyway, on to things less mushy...my parents are moving to AZ! Dad got a job offer and mom is reluctanly coming with ;) She wants to she is just sad to leave her social life and the church and her dear friends behind...but hopefully seeing her grandbabies more than just a couple times a year will be enough to make her feel like this was the right decision.
Christmas was wonderful, the best I've had in a long time. We were very worried about what were going to do about gifts this year because, obviously, money is tight since I quite working. But I found AMAZING things for the girls during a thrift store shopping trip and they absolutely loved everything they got. Now another two weeks and Block 3 starts...i'm very anxious to get on with it, i love school and the people in my class...we have all really bonded and it feels almost "fun" to go to class...
Taylor is still with his insurance job and HATES it...I feel so sad for him i know how it feels to have to go to a job you hate, knowing there's nothing you can do about it because we need to [ay the bills. He has been such a support through all of this school stuff. He stays with this job so we can afford for me to stay home with the girls and just go to school...and he stays with the girls so I can go to starbuck's and study...I really do take him for granted, I hope he knows how much his sacrifices mean to me and how much it will help our future. He is such a wonderful husband and father.
Well I think I've had enough word diarrhea for now...hopefully that catches us up enough and HOPEFULLY I can start doing this regulalry again!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Soooo close!

Even though I am extremely uncomfortable at this point and sometimes feel like i might go crazy because I can't get my house clean enough (darn nesting syndrome)...i have to say that this pregnancy has gone by rather quickly. Our little one will be here two weeks from this Tuesday...October 26th to be exact! We are officially naming her Avery Caitlyn Lee and she will be arriving via C-section...I am so looking forward to meeting her AND not being pregnant anymore! And being done with work...I cannot tell you what a relief it is going to be when I clock out for the last time! My last day is next saturday and it cannot come fast enough! It is absolute torture sitting at my desk for 12 hours all through the night...my feet swell up beyond belief, my back aches and there is so much pressure in my pelvis and under my ribs...it is just awful! Thank goodness I just have one more weekend...
On another note...i start school January 11th!! I was accepted into the part-time evening program at Gateway so I only go twice a week from 5:30p to 930pm...which is SUCH a blessing for our little family...why you ask? Because it means NO DAYCARE!! The girls will be able to stay home with their daddy while i'm at school and i'll only be gone for four hours, twice a week. And the best part is, i graduate at the same time as the full time students...only different is I go to school in the summer and they don't...but with it only being twice a week, i'm totally okay with that! So everything seems to be falling into place, thanks to heavenly father above hearing all my prayers :) Hopefully the next time I update this thing, our little Avery will be here!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

La di Da

WE NEED THE INTERNET!! So much is going on in our lives and so many moments I want to capture and share on this blog, but without the internet, I'm reduced to just logging in when i'm at work...and that means only once a week and no pictures :( We are working on it so some day soon I'll be able to fix this thing up and take more pictures to document all the wonderful experiences our little family has had. For now, all I can do is write:
Baby Lee 2 is so close to making her debut...just 9 weeks to go!! And yes, she is still Baby 2 for now...Taylor and I just cannot seem to find common ground on what to name her. I have wanted Avery Noel since the beginning of the pregnancy and he, not surprisingly, has said no and dug his heels in. I really hope we either find another "better" name or he let's me have my way. I just feel it in my gut that that is who she is supposed to be! He thinks i'm just saying that to get my way, but it's true! Maybe we will know for sure when she finally arrives.
We moved Morgan into her big girl bed this week and it has gone much smoother than I anticipated. We have had the occasional protests at bedtime and she's snuck out a few times, but all in all she is adjusting well. I went all out creating a new room for her so she would feel special and excited about the change. Again, here would be a moment where internet at home would be awesome, so i could share pictures of the finished result. Taylor and I spent three hours last sunday taking apart the guest room and setting up her bed...and when I say "taylor and I"..i mostly mean Taylor. I couldn't really be of much use when it came to lifting and carrying....but he was such a good sport...he knows this is the nesting period and has been so sweet about all my craziness. I have had him rearrange and arrange back again so much furniture this week it's a wonder he can still walk!
The pregnancy is going well...i'm uncomfortable and tired, but I try not to think about it. And i'm so busy with Morgan I often don't have time to dwell on it. She is SUCH an energetic kid...she never stops. We literally are doing stuff all day long whether it's swimming, going for walks, going to the mall to play in the play place...i have to keep her active or she gets grumpy! She is just like her momma ;) I am really looking forward to being done with this pregnancy though and hopefully having some time to just "relax" at home with my babies. It will be nice to have a break from work as well...this whole nightshift thing has been REALLY hard on my physically so i'm looking forward to being done with that...only 2 months of it left! WOO!!
Well I think that about does it for now...hopefully I will have TONS of pictures to share with you soon!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Food for thought

I can't believe it's been two months since the last time i updated this thing...where to start??! I'm 28 weeks pregnant now so we are moving right along. Time seems to have come to a complete hault, probably because i'm so anxious to be done with this pregnancy. It's been kind of miserable...I think the circumstances are just more difficult this time. Working the night shift with minimal sleep, caring for a two-year-old that never stops moving, and trying to grow a baby all at the same time can be a bit strenuous :) I'm just ready for this to be overrrrr!
I had the dreaded glucose test last week and it was...dreadful haha. First off, the drink itself was so disgusting and made me so nauseated...and then by the time I arrived to the doctor's office to have the blood test done, i was seriously THIS CLOSE to passing out. I had to be taken to back room and lay down on the table where i basically had the spins and was sweating profusely. And this lasted for an hour! I couldn't get up!! Anyway, i was finally able to make my way home, but felt like crap for the next few days. Oh it was sooo awful! But the test came back normal...other than being anemic, everything looked fine. I am so glad that part is over...! So all in all, as you can see from the different blogs before this...this pregnancy has been slightly difficult a times, but baby girl is healthy and kicking and seems to be fine, so that's all that matters.
Switching gears....we just got back from a trip up to St. Johns this week. It had been over a year since i'd been there!! And it was so nice to get out of the heat. Morgan had such a blast playing with her cousins, running around barefoot in the backyard, jumping on the trampoline, playing with the animals...she seriously just seemed SO happy. I can't believe i'm saying this but, that trip really has me considering moving up there when i'm done with school. She just turned into a totally different kid...she was entertained the whole time, it was relaxing, it was quiet....I just think a place like that would be such a wonderful atmosphere to raise a child in...we even drove around the town looking at pieces of land for sale and talked about the idea of building a house out there in a couple years. I don't know, i could change my mind next month who knows...but it's a thought...?? Anyway, it was a good trip...
So that brings us up to date for now...12 weeks left in the pregnancy (maybe less if the doctor decides to take her early)...still no name, still no room set up...so much to do still but we will be ready...Our family is facing a lot of change in the next few months but we are excited and ready...!!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

House Full of Estrogen

We received exciting news on Thursday....we are having another baby girl!! The doctor said all her measurements look good, heartbeat is good, and no signs of any birth defects or other genetic concerns. That is always such a relief to hear....and we are very excited to finally know what we're having. Taylor was surprisingly okay with the news...I know he was hoping for a boy, but he loves his little girl and he's excited to have two...although he's expressed concerns about how difficult it will be to have a house full of girls...Morgan tends to take after me and can be very emotional and sensitive at times. Maybe this little one will be a little more free spirited and laid back like her daddy. We'll see!! Now comes the challenge of finding a name and getting the nursery ready...i've been dying to get started on that! Now that I know that it's a girl I can really start planning her room...and we have to get Morgan into a big girl bed! What a busy next couple of months we are going to have! But I am really looking forward to this addition to our family and all the joy it will bring...i'm very nervous about being overwhelmed with two kids, and all the work that comes with caring for a newborn, but i know we can do it!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!

It is officially May 9th...mother's day! Celebrating this day has me reflecting over the past two years of my life and how much I have learned and changed since the day I became a mother. It is both the hardest and most rewarding experience I have ever had, and while my two years on the job doesn't make me an expert quite yet, I do want to share what I've learned:

1. The day i became a mom is the day my life was no longer about me anymore. Sometimes it is frustrating and overwhelming, and sometimes I mourn the days when I only had myself to worry about...but then I realize that learning how to be unselfish and make sacrifices and have unconditional love for someone is so much better than anything i ever had before.
2. People say that having a child together can either make or break your relationship. Taylor and I talk all the time about how lucky we are that our situation became such a positive one. I love my husband more and more every day, and every day I am forced to take a step back and realize how incredibly lucky i am to have someone so patient and loving and devoted as he is.
3. Nothing will ever be more satisfying than when your child comes to you, wraps her arms around your leg, looks up at you and says "i love you mama". Nothing.
4. While it often seems that life flies by faster now that I am a mom, I have also realized that my daughter has been able to show me how to enjoy the simple things in life, not to worry about tomorrow, and to be grateful for what we have been given today. We are so lucky in so many ways and seeing how happy and healthy she is serves as a constant reminder of that.
5. Becoming a mom has solidified my belief that God has a plan for all of us. Morgan was a huge surprise, one that I somewhat resented during the pregnancy...but it gives me chills now to think about how incredible and miraculous her timing was...and the message that he was sending me when he created her.
6. I hope that I can do my best to show her nothing but love and support, so that she may someday have a child of her own, and and experience the joy and happiness that I have felt being her mother.

To all the mommies out there...thank you for all you do, all the sacrifices you have made in the name of motherhood, and the loving, selfless, beautiful women you are!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Is this over yet?

Just had a doctor's visit that went relatively well...minus the poking and prawding around in my special places LOL...nothing destroys all sense of modesty than being pregnant and giving birth. If someone had told me a couple of years ago how many people would see my "flower" or stick fingers in places even I wouldn't dare venture into, i would have DIED! But anyway, enough about that...i'm trying to forget that part remember?!! The doctor said the heartbeat looks great, there's more amniotic fluid which is wonderful news because we had a scare last visit...she said there wasn't enough fluid and it was "concerning"...never a good thing to hear. But all is well AND...we find out the sex at the next visit! YAY!!! So June 3rd, if all goes well, we should be able to determine if i'm carrying a little girl or a mini tay tay...i'm so excited i can't wait! Knowing what it is always makes this a little easier...it kind of makes things more special when you can refer to the baby as "he" or "she" rather than "it"...so I'm really looking forward to that. PLUS (dare i say it) i think the nausea may finally be starting to ease up. As my doctor put it, "the best treatment plan would be for you to quit working" but since that's obviously a big fat YEAH RIGHT...she wrote me a prescription for some anti-nausea medication...i have yet to try it (still have to get it filled) but just knowing i have it when i really need it makes me feel better already!! Now if only i could convince everyone that what i really need is bedrest for the next five months...then i'd be in heaven :)