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Saturday, October 9, 2010

Soooo close!

Even though I am extremely uncomfortable at this point and sometimes feel like i might go crazy because I can't get my house clean enough (darn nesting syndrome)...i have to say that this pregnancy has gone by rather quickly. Our little one will be here two weeks from this Tuesday...October 26th to be exact! We are officially naming her Avery Caitlyn Lee and she will be arriving via C-section...I am so looking forward to meeting her AND not being pregnant anymore! And being done with work...I cannot tell you what a relief it is going to be when I clock out for the last time! My last day is next saturday and it cannot come fast enough! It is absolute torture sitting at my desk for 12 hours all through the night...my feet swell up beyond belief, my back aches and there is so much pressure in my pelvis and under my ribs...it is just awful! Thank goodness I just have one more weekend...
On another note...i start school January 11th!! I was accepted into the part-time evening program at Gateway so I only go twice a week from 5:30p to 930pm...which is SUCH a blessing for our little family...why you ask? Because it means NO DAYCARE!! The girls will be able to stay home with their daddy while i'm at school and i'll only be gone for four hours, twice a week. And the best part is, i graduate at the same time as the full time students...only different is I go to school in the summer and they don't...but with it only being twice a week, i'm totally okay with that! So everything seems to be falling into place, thanks to heavenly father above hearing all my prayers :) Hopefully the next time I update this thing, our little Avery will be here!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

La di Da

WE NEED THE INTERNET!! So much is going on in our lives and so many moments I want to capture and share on this blog, but without the internet, I'm reduced to just logging in when i'm at work...and that means only once a week and no pictures :( We are working on it so some day soon I'll be able to fix this thing up and take more pictures to document all the wonderful experiences our little family has had. For now, all I can do is write:
Baby Lee 2 is so close to making her debut...just 9 weeks to go!! And yes, she is still Baby 2 for now...Taylor and I just cannot seem to find common ground on what to name her. I have wanted Avery Noel since the beginning of the pregnancy and he, not surprisingly, has said no and dug his heels in. I really hope we either find another "better" name or he let's me have my way. I just feel it in my gut that that is who she is supposed to be! He thinks i'm just saying that to get my way, but it's true! Maybe we will know for sure when she finally arrives.
We moved Morgan into her big girl bed this week and it has gone much smoother than I anticipated. We have had the occasional protests at bedtime and she's snuck out a few times, but all in all she is adjusting well. I went all out creating a new room for her so she would feel special and excited about the change. Again, here would be a moment where internet at home would be awesome, so i could share pictures of the finished result. Taylor and I spent three hours last sunday taking apart the guest room and setting up her bed...and when I say "taylor and I"..i mostly mean Taylor. I couldn't really be of much use when it came to lifting and carrying....but he was such a good sport...he knows this is the nesting period and has been so sweet about all my craziness. I have had him rearrange and arrange back again so much furniture this week it's a wonder he can still walk!
The pregnancy is going well...i'm uncomfortable and tired, but I try not to think about it. And i'm so busy with Morgan I often don't have time to dwell on it. She is SUCH an energetic kid...she never stops. We literally are doing stuff all day long whether it's swimming, going for walks, going to the mall to play in the play place...i have to keep her active or she gets grumpy! She is just like her momma ;) I am really looking forward to being done with this pregnancy though and hopefully having some time to just "relax" at home with my babies. It will be nice to have a break from work as well...this whole nightshift thing has been REALLY hard on my physically so i'm looking forward to being done with that...only 2 months of it left! WOO!!
Well I think that about does it for now...hopefully I will have TONS of pictures to share with you soon!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Food for thought

I can't believe it's been two months since the last time i updated this thing...where to start??! I'm 28 weeks pregnant now so we are moving right along. Time seems to have come to a complete hault, probably because i'm so anxious to be done with this pregnancy. It's been kind of miserable...I think the circumstances are just more difficult this time. Working the night shift with minimal sleep, caring for a two-year-old that never stops moving, and trying to grow a baby all at the same time can be a bit strenuous :) I'm just ready for this to be overrrrr!
I had the dreaded glucose test last week and it was...dreadful haha. First off, the drink itself was so disgusting and made me so nauseated...and then by the time I arrived to the doctor's office to have the blood test done, i was seriously THIS CLOSE to passing out. I had to be taken to back room and lay down on the table where i basically had the spins and was sweating profusely. And this lasted for an hour! I couldn't get up!! Anyway, i was finally able to make my way home, but felt like crap for the next few days. Oh it was sooo awful! But the test came back normal...other than being anemic, everything looked fine. I am so glad that part is over...! So all in all, as you can see from the different blogs before this...this pregnancy has been slightly difficult a times, but baby girl is healthy and kicking and seems to be fine, so that's all that matters.
Switching gears....we just got back from a trip up to St. Johns this week. It had been over a year since i'd been there!! And it was so nice to get out of the heat. Morgan had such a blast playing with her cousins, running around barefoot in the backyard, jumping on the trampoline, playing with the animals...she seriously just seemed SO happy. I can't believe i'm saying this but, that trip really has me considering moving up there when i'm done with school. She just turned into a totally different kid...she was entertained the whole time, it was relaxing, it was quiet....I just think a place like that would be such a wonderful atmosphere to raise a child in...we even drove around the town looking at pieces of land for sale and talked about the idea of building a house out there in a couple years. I don't know, i could change my mind next month who knows...but it's a thought...?? Anyway, it was a good trip...
So that brings us up to date for now...12 weeks left in the pregnancy (maybe less if the doctor decides to take her early)...still no name, still no room set up...so much to do still but we will be ready...Our family is facing a lot of change in the next few months but we are excited and ready...!!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

House Full of Estrogen

We received exciting news on Thursday....we are having another baby girl!! The doctor said all her measurements look good, heartbeat is good, and no signs of any birth defects or other genetic concerns. That is always such a relief to hear....and we are very excited to finally know what we're having. Taylor was surprisingly okay with the news...I know he was hoping for a boy, but he loves his little girl and he's excited to have two...although he's expressed concerns about how difficult it will be to have a house full of girls...Morgan tends to take after me and can be very emotional and sensitive at times. Maybe this little one will be a little more free spirited and laid back like her daddy. We'll see!! Now comes the challenge of finding a name and getting the nursery ready...i've been dying to get started on that! Now that I know that it's a girl I can really start planning her room...and we have to get Morgan into a big girl bed! What a busy next couple of months we are going to have! But I am really looking forward to this addition to our family and all the joy it will bring...i'm very nervous about being overwhelmed with two kids, and all the work that comes with caring for a newborn, but i know we can do it!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!

It is officially May 9th...mother's day! Celebrating this day has me reflecting over the past two years of my life and how much I have learned and changed since the day I became a mother. It is both the hardest and most rewarding experience I have ever had, and while my two years on the job doesn't make me an expert quite yet, I do want to share what I've learned:

1. The day i became a mom is the day my life was no longer about me anymore. Sometimes it is frustrating and overwhelming, and sometimes I mourn the days when I only had myself to worry about...but then I realize that learning how to be unselfish and make sacrifices and have unconditional love for someone is so much better than anything i ever had before.
2. People say that having a child together can either make or break your relationship. Taylor and I talk all the time about how lucky we are that our situation became such a positive one. I love my husband more and more every day, and every day I am forced to take a step back and realize how incredibly lucky i am to have someone so patient and loving and devoted as he is.
3. Nothing will ever be more satisfying than when your child comes to you, wraps her arms around your leg, looks up at you and says "i love you mama". Nothing.
4. While it often seems that life flies by faster now that I am a mom, I have also realized that my daughter has been able to show me how to enjoy the simple things in life, not to worry about tomorrow, and to be grateful for what we have been given today. We are so lucky in so many ways and seeing how happy and healthy she is serves as a constant reminder of that.
5. Becoming a mom has solidified my belief that God has a plan for all of us. Morgan was a huge surprise, one that I somewhat resented during the pregnancy...but it gives me chills now to think about how incredible and miraculous her timing was...and the message that he was sending me when he created her.
6. I hope that I can do my best to show her nothing but love and support, so that she may someday have a child of her own, and and experience the joy and happiness that I have felt being her mother.

To all the mommies out there...thank you for all you do, all the sacrifices you have made in the name of motherhood, and the loving, selfless, beautiful women you are!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Is this over yet?

Just had a doctor's visit that went relatively well...minus the poking and prawding around in my special places LOL...nothing destroys all sense of modesty than being pregnant and giving birth. If someone had told me a couple of years ago how many people would see my "flower" or stick fingers in places even I wouldn't dare venture into, i would have DIED! But anyway, enough about that...i'm trying to forget that part remember?!! The doctor said the heartbeat looks great, there's more amniotic fluid which is wonderful news because we had a scare last visit...she said there wasn't enough fluid and it was "concerning"...never a good thing to hear. But all is well AND...we find out the sex at the next visit! YAY!!! So June 3rd, if all goes well, we should be able to determine if i'm carrying a little girl or a mini tay tay...i'm so excited i can't wait! Knowing what it is always makes this a little easier...it kind of makes things more special when you can refer to the baby as "he" or "she" rather than "it"...so I'm really looking forward to that. PLUS (dare i say it) i think the nausea may finally be starting to ease up. As my doctor put it, "the best treatment plan would be for you to quit working" but since that's obviously a big fat YEAH RIGHT...she wrote me a prescription for some anti-nausea medication...i have yet to try it (still have to get it filled) but just knowing i have it when i really need it makes me feel better already!! Now if only i could convince everyone that what i really need is bedrest for the next five months...then i'd be in heaven :)

Thursday, April 22, 2010

So sick of being sick

I am 12 weeks and 2 days pregnant today...and so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm so tired of feeling exhausted, and nauseated...and the headaches and indigestion and VOMITING. OMG its so bad that i have my own secret bathroom at work that i found just so i can vomit in private. It's Awful!! I mean, i was sick with Morgan, but not this sick...plus the first time around i could sleep when i felt tired, lay down when i felt sick, and go home from work when it became too much. Circumstances are just different this time and there is absolutely no way to cope this time! AAHHH!! I'm just hoping that as i enter into the second trimester this "morning" sickness will ease up.
This experience is SO different this time, which i did not expect. For one thing, i forget i'm even pregnant! I mean before, when it was just us, the whole focus was on me and taking care of my needs. Our lives revolved around my growing belly. Also, it was so new and such a shock that it was always on my mind...what could we expect, were we ready, could we handle it, how much fatter am i going to get? And as i said before, i was able to rest when i wasn't feeling well.
This time, it's so different. We just simply don't have the time to think about it...the only reason i remember is because i have my head stuck in a toilet three or four times a day and none of my clothes fit anymore...otherwise i honestly forget! And Morgan requires all of my attention, not to mention the laundry, the groceries, the housework, and my full time night shift job. There is so much going on i'm almost positive that the due date is going to sneak up on us and we are going to be like "OMG we aren't ready for this yet!!"
Also, i'm not as excited or enthusiastic about this one...it makes me sad, but everyone i've talked to says its normal to feel that way...i haven't had the desire to think about names, plan the babies room, or even buy maternity clothes! I just haven't connected with the idea yet i guess. It's so wierd. And it's so hard to imagine loving another child as much as I love Morgan, but i know everyone thinks that before their second child...so i'm not worried. I'm just gonna take it day by day, week by week.....12 weeks down...24 weeks to go

Friday, April 2, 2010

ANOTHER bun in the oven!!

Yep, it's true. We are crazy, and yes....we are having another baby! The due date is early November (which i must admit feels like a million years away) and we are very excited to welcome another member into our family! I am about nine weeks along now and this pregancy has been SO tough...i used to think that juggling Morgan, the nightshift, and sleep deprivation was hard...but now it all has to be done with severe morning sickness thrown in the mix. And when i say "morning sickness" i mean all day 24/7 never-ending sickness...I'm definately sicker with this one and it has made for a tough couple of weeks :( But Taylor thinks that means it's a boy haha...fingers crossed! We asked Morgan whether she would like a baby sister or baby brother and she promptly replied "no...i don't want it" and followed with "i no like a babies"...HA! She is in for a rude awakening isn't she! Poor little thing...So that's our news! I will try to update this thing more often and keep everyone posted on how the pregnancy is moving along.
On another "exciting" note...i was accepted to the MCC Nursing program!!! My start was for this fall (August 2010) but i chose to defer placement until next semester so I wouldn't have to miss any school to have the baby. It was a bittersweet moment to open that acceptance letter...i was so happy to finally read those words "you have been placed"...but at the same time I knew that I would have to wait yet another semester before I could start on this part of my life. But i've come to terms with it now...this is a good thing. We will have more time to prepare financially and I will be able to focus all my attention on growing a baby and spending time with Morgan. And then i will be able to start the nursing program in January...so I figure, i waited a year and a half to get in, what's 5 more months?
Anyway, I believe this chain of events has occured in an order specific to what God has planned for our family so I am happy and content with it. Life never seems to slowly unfold for us, it kind of always EXPLODES in intervals....first was a surprise pregnancy and a marriage within a matter of 4 months....then it was moving three times in one year and changing of jobs and schedules mixed in...and now it's another baby and then nursing school back to back! Like i said, we are CRAZY...but so happy. Thank you to our families and freinds for all your love and support.
I will be in touch!!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

CHRISTMAS 2009







Well i have to admit i'm kind of sad that christmas is over. I'm always sad...actually the sad part is that it hit me the hardest when i went to starbucks today and realized they are no longer serving coffee in thier christmas cups. It's officially over now :( Anyway, christmas was...okay. My family flew in from Seattle (and my crazy dad drove the 26 hour drive so he could bring his motorcycle and my piano)! They were here for about two weeks and it was nice to see them...that will probably be the only time i see them all year unless i'm able to find time to fly up there. It was SO nice to have someone to occupy Morgan so Taylor and I could have a few moments to ourselves. We went out to dinner and a movie one night and did some christmas shopping together....other than that I was very busy with work. Christmas morning Morgan and I were both very sick...and it lingered for a couple of days so that put a damper on the holiday. I never EVER get sick, but the one time i do in over a year, it has to be Christmas!
So taylor, bless his heart, gave me Tup-o-ware for christmas this year. Will that man ever learn? I mean i know it's partially my fault because i didn't spell out exactly what i wanted this year, but....Tup-o-ware?? Oh taylor, you have so much to learn. He did make up for it slightly with some nice perfume....next year i'll make sure to write it all down for him, otherwise i may end up with the matching pack n' go plasticware!
Morgan had a good time on christmas...she really had the most fun helping everyone else unwrap their gifts. She is just growing up so fast. She can sing songs and speak in sentences, sort of...she'll say "momma go bye bye?" and "i apple juice"....oh and we can forget the occasional "Oh sh*t!"...not sure where she learned that (DADDY!). But we are working on that one ;)
Anyway, my parents have officially gone back to Seattle, the christmas decor has been put away, and starbucks is using thier boring old white and green cups...so holidays are behind us. But all in all it was a good christmas this year and I feel very blessed for all i have. I hope you all enjoyed the holidays as well...here's to 2010~!!