Is this over yet?

Just had a doctor's visit that went relatively well...minus the poking and prawding around in my special places LOL...nothing destroys all sense of modesty than being pregnant and giving birth. If someone had told me a couple of years ago how many people would see my "flower" or stick fingers in places even I wouldn't dare venture into, i would have DIED! But anyway, enough about that...i'm trying to forget that part remember?!! The doctor said the heartbeat looks great, there's more amniotic fluid which is wonderful news because we had a scare last visit...she said there wasn't enough fluid and it was "concerning"...never a good thing to hear. But all is well AND...we find out the sex at the next visit! YAY!!! So June 3rd, if all goes well, we should be able to determine if i'm carrying a little girl or a mini tay tay...i'm so excited i can't wait! Knowing what it is always makes this a little easier...it kind of makes things more special when you can refer to the baby as "he" or "she" rather than "it"...so I'm really looking forward to that. PLUS (dare i say it) i think the nausea may finally be starting to ease up. As my doctor put it, "the best treatment plan would be for you to quit working" but since that's obviously a big fat YEAH RIGHT...she wrote me a prescription for some anti-nausea medication...i have yet to try it (still have to get it filled) but just knowing i have it when i really need it makes me feel better already!! Now if only i could convince everyone that what i really need is bedrest for the next five months...then i'd be in heaven :)

So sick of being sick

I am 12 weeks and 2 days pregnant today...and so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm so tired of feeling exhausted, and nauseated...and the headaches and indigestion and VOMITING. OMG its so bad that i have my own secret bathroom at work that i found just so i can vomit in private. It's Awful!! I mean, i was sick with Morgan, but not this sick...plus the first time around i could sleep when i felt tired, lay down when i felt sick, and go home from work when it became too much. Circumstances are just different this time and there is absolutely no way to cope this time! AAHHH!! I'm just hoping that as i enter into the second trimester this "morning" sickness will ease up.
This experience is SO different this time, which i did not expect. For one thing, i forget i'm even pregnant! I mean before, when it was just us, the whole focus was on me and taking care of my needs. Our lives revolved around my growing belly. Also, it was so new and such a shock that it was always on my mind...what could we expect, were we ready, could we handle it, how much fatter am i going to get? And as i said before, i was able to rest when i wasn't feeling well.
This time, it's so different. We just simply don't have the time to think about it...the only reason i remember is because i have my head stuck in a toilet three or four times a day and none of my clothes fit anymore...otherwise i honestly forget! And Morgan requires all of my attention, not to mention the laundry, the groceries, the housework, and my full time night shift job. There is so much going on i'm almost positive that the due date is going to sneak up on us and we are going to be like "OMG we aren't ready for this yet!!"
Also, i'm not as excited or enthusiastic about this one...it makes me sad, but everyone i've talked to says its normal to feel that way...i haven't had the desire to think about names, plan the babies room, or even buy maternity clothes! I just haven't connected with the idea yet i guess. It's so wierd. And it's so hard to imagine loving another child as much as I love Morgan, but i know everyone thinks that before their second child...so i'm not worried. I'm just gonna take it day by day, week by week.....12 weeks down...24 weeks to go

ANOTHER bun in the oven!!

Yep, it's true. We are crazy, and yes....we are having another baby! The due date is early November (which i must admit feels like a million years away) and we are very excited to welcome another member into our family! I am about nine weeks along now and this pregancy has been SO tough...i used to think that juggling Morgan, the nightshift, and sleep deprivation was hard...but now it all has to be done with severe morning sickness thrown in the mix. And when i say "morning sickness" i mean all day 24/7 never-ending sickness...I'm definately sicker with this one and it has made for a tough couple of weeks :( But Taylor thinks that means it's a boy haha...fingers crossed! We asked Morgan whether she would like a baby sister or baby brother and she promptly replied "no...i don't want it" and followed with "i no like a babies"...HA! She is in for a rude awakening isn't she! Poor little thing...So that's our news! I will try to update this thing more often and keep everyone posted on how the pregnancy is moving along.
On another "exciting" note...i was accepted to the MCC Nursing program!!! My start was for this fall (August 2010) but i chose to defer placement until next semester so I wouldn't have to miss any school to have the baby. It was a bittersweet moment to open that acceptance letter...i was so happy to finally read those words "you have been placed"...but at the same time I knew that I would have to wait yet another semester before I could start on this part of my life. But i've come to terms with it now...this is a good thing. We will have more time to prepare financially and I will be able to focus all my attention on growing a baby and spending time with Morgan. And then i will be able to start the nursing program in January...so I figure, i waited a year and a half to get in, what's 5 more months?
Anyway, I believe this chain of events has occured in an order specific to what God has planned for our family so I am happy and content with it. Life never seems to slowly unfold for us, it kind of always EXPLODES in intervals....first was a surprise pregnancy and a marriage within a matter of 4 months....then it was moving three times in one year and changing of jobs and schedules mixed in...and now it's another baby and then nursing school back to back! Like i said, we are CRAZY...but so happy. Thank you to our families and freinds for all your love and support.
I will be in touch!!

CHRISTMAS 2009

Well i have to admit i'm kind of sad that christmas is over. I'm always sad...actually the sad part is that it hit me the hardest when i went to starbucks today and realized they are no longer serving coffee in thier christmas cups. It's officially over now :( Anyway, christmas was...okay. My family flew in from Seattle (and my crazy dad drove the 26 hour drive so he could bring his motorcycle and my piano)! They were here for about two weeks and it was nice to see them...that will probably be the only time i see them all year unless i'm able to find time to fly up there. It was SO nice to have someone to occupy Morgan so Taylor and I could have a few moments to ourselves. We went out to dinner and a movie one night and did some christmas shopping together....other than that I was very busy with work. Christmas morning Morgan and I were both very sick...and it lingered for a couple of days so that put a damper on the holiday. I never EVER get sick, but the one time i do in over a year, it has to be Christmas!

So taylor, bless his heart, gave me Tup-o-ware for christmas this year. Will that man ever learn? I mean i know it's partially my fault because i didn't spell out exactly what i wanted this year, but....Tup-o-ware?? Oh taylor, you have so much to learn. He did make up for it slightly with some nice perfume....next year i'll make sure to write it all down for him, otherwise i may end up with the matching pack n' go plasticware!

Morgan had a good time on christmas...she really had the most fun helping everyone else unwrap their gifts. She is just growing up so fast. She can sing songs and speak in sentences, sort of...she'll say "momma go bye bye?" and "i apple juice"....oh and we can forget the occasional "Oh sh*t!"...not sure where she learned that (DADDY!). But we are working on that one ;)

Anyway, my parents have officially gone back to Seattle, the christmas decor has been put away, and starbucks is using thier boring old white and green cups...so holidays are behind us. But all in all it was a good christmas this year and I feel very blessed for all i have. I hope you all enjoyed the holidays as well...here's to 2010~!!

Checking in....

Wow i really need to get the internet at home so i can keep up with this thing. I mean HELLO, it's the 21st century...who doesn't have the internet now-a-days? Anyway, as always, the past few months have flown by. I swear if there were just a few more hours in each day i could catch up, but....then again....there are those days when 8 pm (morgan's bedtime) can't come fast enough. I found out that...drumroll please...i'm STILL on the waitlist for the nursing program. Will the madness ever end??!!! I didn't make it into the spring semester so now i have my fingers crossed for the fall. I guess in a way this is a good thing because by the time i start Morgan will probably be driving and i won't have to worry about finding a babysitter haha.
So for now, I continue to work the dreadful night shift...three 12s a week...and then my other job the rest of the week as a stay-at-home-mom (which is still in the lead when it comes to which is more exhausting). It is exhausting, but so so worth it.
Morgan is 18 months old now! To say she is a bundle of energy is definately an understatement...She literally never stops. She makes messes, she breaks things, she runs into walls, spills milk on the couch, sticks things in the toilet, is fascinated with the garbage, eats soap in the bathtub, won't keep her clothes on, and writes on the wall with markers (i still haven't told taylor about that one!)...BUT...she is the light of my life. She is so entertaining and growing up right before our very eyes. I love every day with her and all the "adventures" we have together. I would do anything for that little girl...that being said...Thank the HeaVanS above for nap time!!!! I don't know what i would do without it.
Halloween came and went like a whirlwind....Johnny and Brittany came over with Jaedyn and My sister and Jeff brought Hannah. Jaedyn was a pumpkin princess, hannah was Cinderella, and Morgan was a Tulip. I will have pics soon. I got really into the spirit of things (which is not like me because i have never cared that much for halloween). I made monter eye devilled eggs and mummy dogs (pigs in a blanket). We took the girls trick or treating and it was...alright. Morgan just didn't get it...and i was ready to quit after the third house. She wouldn't stay on the sidewalk and wouldn't go up to the door to get candy!!! But eventually she saw the older girls doing it and got the hang of it....still though, i really don't think she was all that thrilled with the event haha...
Now i'm really looking forward to Christmas...I think this will such a fun year with Morgan. And my entire family is coming into town which is great because they hardly get to see Morgan. We all know that's the only reason they come to visit anymore, but i guess they're entitled to that :)
Well that's really all i have for now...i will try to post more often, with less writing :)

Pictures!

Here we are on our way to SJ so Taylor could introduce me to his family for the first time!

Good times in Vegas last year :)

Morgan eating a "nana"...13 months

Vegas November 2008

Little Mogan in her hat...7 months old

December 5, 2007...we've been married almost 2 years now!

Our trip to Seattle

Morgan and I just returned from a week long trip to Seattle. It was much-needed vacation and it was really good to spend time with my family...even though i know they could've cared less if i were there or not, as long as they got to see morgan! So the entire trip was definately eventful...starting with the flight up there. It was just me and morgan this trip, as Taylor started training for his new position (yes, he got the promotion!!). So we were fortunate enough to be able to fly first class (thanks mom!)...however, I almost would've preferred coach when traveling with a young, rambunctious, stubborn, and sometimes incredibly vocal 13 month old! Morgan was very patient the entire three hour flight, however, she kept herself entertained by leaning over me and spitting on the poor gentleman next to us! I was MORTIFIED! She found it hilarious to spit, and grab the book out of his hand, grab his phone and throw it on the floor...she also kept standing on my stomach to peer at the people sitting behind me...other than all that, she was good :)
Seattle was beautiful! It didn't rain once the entire time we were there! Morgan had the best time playing outside in the dirt and collecting rocks...and torturing my parents' two dogs. She entertained us with her dancing and singing and her new trick...blowing kisses. I saw old freinds, had some time to go do things on my own (minus the baby for once!) and of course, saw my little brother graduate from high school...*tear :(. Now we are home, back to life as usual. We are definately glad to see Taylor though, we both missed him a lot! One morning towards the end of the trip Morgan woke up asking for her "dada"...and was walking around looking for him in all the rooms. So we called him and put him on speaker and she was SO excited...just laughing and pointing to the phone.
All in all it was a great trip...i will have pictures up soon!